I do believe that I am the dumbest person on the planet. I keep making the same freaking mistake and then I sit there and wonder, "How did I end up here?" Like it isn't exactly the same every time. There is a good possibility that I have a Savior complex... and it keeps getting me into trouble because I think that I am strong enough to handle it and that I could really help someone. But no one is that strong and I am so sick of breaking my own heart in exactly the same way. Is there anyone out there who would be willing to physically restrain me? I would really appreciate it. And maybe actually take my phone away? Great. Anyway, so I said I wasn't going to see him again EVER- maybe I'm setting my goals too high- but I still walked outside when he showed up at my house... and here is the part where the divine retribution comes in, my eye is now swollen shut. Serves me right. Maybe I'm allergic to him? Hopefully. Anyway, here are the lyrics to James Blunt's "Same Mistake" because it's exactly my feelings and it's put much prettier than I could write it.
"And so I sent some men to fight, and one came back at dead of night.
Said he'd seen my enemy. Said he looked just like me,
So I set out to cut myself and here I go.
I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.
And maybe someday we will meet, and maybe talk and not just speak."
1 comment:
Hey, I will restrain you from whatever it is you are trying to avoid...now that I've got some extra time on my hands!!
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