What I really meant to say was people who don't matter, but that didn't sound nice. Ha ha. Lately I've been realizing what relationships in my life matter and who I actually care about. And let me tell you, the relationships that are most important are the ones I put the least amount of effort into. It should be that way. Friendship shouldn't have to be a hard thing. Thursday Caytee and Preston stayed with me in Vegas. Let me tell you, Caytee and I are complete opposites in so many ways, but our friendship has always been so easy. And we can always find something that both of us enjoy doing. Even if we haven't talked for weeks, I can pick up the phone and everything is exactly the same between us. There are a lot of people in my life like that. I feel kind of like an idiot for spending so much time trying to make friendships/relationships work with people when it took so much time and energy. Most people like me. I get told frequently that I am a very likable person. I'm done working at things that should come naturally. I haven't
talked to most of my problematic friends for quite a while now, and let me tell you, I don't miss them at all. I always thought that I would. But no. Is that bad?Now let me tell you about some things that don't matter. What you do for a living: honestly, I wish someone would have told me this years ago. I always based my self worth off of the idea that I needed to have this major or this job or go to this school. Seriously, people keep assuming that I'm bored not working, that it must be driving me crazy...Heck no. I'm catching up on my reading and movie watching. I started doing crafts again. I have time to go on a walk and I get to sleep, which we all know is one of my favorite things. I also figured out that i
t's not the end of the world if I don't get into the graduate school I want to go to. Adapt. Change. I can be such a spoiled brat sometimes. But I'm done throwing temper tantrums when things don't go my way. Recently I've discovered that I'm scared of almost everything. I'm so sick of that. I'm also sick of the idea that I need to do something amazing with my life. Why can't I just be ordinary. What's wrong with being a normal person?
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You are too cute! I sure do love you. It's true. We are kind of on the opposite ends...but that has never been an issue our entire lives. I sure do love you! And thanks for letting us come see you. We had so much fun!
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