Out of Touch

The other day my little cousin posted a status on facebook that said, "I hate when people write poned, learn how to spell and get off the internet losers." When did I get so out of touch? I didn't even know what word was trying to be spelled... I had to ask my 15 year old brother. SAAD. So, for those of you who are woefully out of touch such as myself- apparently powned (this is the correct spelling) or "pwned" means owned, as in I own you- typically in reference to beating someone at a computer game or some such thing. Who knew?

Beautiful to Him

So much noise, so much peace destroyed,
I can hardly hear the voice, leading me through the void,
So much noise.
The world's little lies,
Destruction in disguise, opportunities to compromise,
To make me beautiful in their eyes,
But I'm not gonna buy the world's little lies.

'Cuz I define myself and find my beauty in the light He gives.
I'm refined by His divine intentions every day I live.
It doesn't matter what the world believes,
Or what they say that beauty means,
It comes from within,
I want to be beautiful to Him.

He's given me His trust, so I'll be strong enough,
To run from a dangerous touch, I don't need that kind of love,
I don't need that crutch, He's given me his trust.

I define myself and find my beauty in the light He gives.
I'm refined by His divine intentions every day I live.
It doesn't matter what the world believes,
Or what they say that beauty means,
It comes from within,
I want to be beautiful to Him.

I know how to shine, my life's not really mine.
It's not about a worldly climb, it's all about His design.
So in His eyes, I want to shine.

'Cuz I define myself and find my beauty in the light He gives.
I'm refined by His divine intentions every day I live.
It doesn't matter what the world believes,
Or what they say that beauty means,
It comes from within,
I want to be beautiful to Him.

I want to live to have His peace,
And feel the holiness He seeks.
It comes from within.
I want to be beautiful... to Him

Normal,.. HAHA

So, tonight my mom and I were talking about my plans and my life and the stuff I want to do. Sometime during this conversation she turns and looks at me and says, "Why don't you want to do normal things?" Anyone who knows me should know what my response to that was... "Um, I hope I don't do anything normal." Honestly, who aspires to be normal- boring people that's who. You know you love me. Ha ha!

The Next Chapter In My Life...

Jessica does Salt Lake. Questions, comments, jubilations, criticisms of my life choices, etc. are all welcome...

WANTED

I'm stealing my Nicole's idea... but I'm giving it a little twist. I'm in desperate need of a man who acts like a man- not a little girl. I'm tired of being surrounded by pansies. Under no circumstances should the girl have to make the first move. Under no circumstances should the girl have to open her own door or defend herself when people are mean or crossing the line. I'm so sick of "men" who just sit there and expect a girl to come fling herself at him... what an awesome predicament we find ourselves in ladies. We do everything and then they get to decide whether they want us or not. Are you effing kidding me? These so called men should be lining up around the block hoping and praying that you will give them a chance- not the other way around. Maybe I'm being old fashioned, but seriously is it so much to ask that men be men so we can be free to be women again? I'm afraid there are no good men left in this world... they are all either liars, cheaters, or girls; in which case I'd rather just hang out with a girl- My girl friends are way less dramatic than most of the boys I know. So until the male population in general decide to grow some testes- I'm out. I'm very seriously swearing off boys... consider this my official letter of resignation.

"Sometimes I think if there was a third sex men wouldn't get so much as a glance from me." ~Amanda Vail

My Good Buddy

Lest anyone get concerned- this is for a great friend... not a love interest.

Friday night beneath the stars
In the field behind your yard
You and I are paintin' pictures in the sky
And sometimes we don't say a thing
Just listen to the crickets sing
Everything I need is right here by my side
And I know everything about you
I don't wanna live without you

I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying to let you know
That what I feel is true
And I'm only me when I'm with you

Just a small town boy and girl
Livin' in a crazy world
Tryin' to figure out what is and isn't true
And I don't try to hide my tears
My secrets or my deepest fears
Through it all nobody gets me like you do
And you know everything about me
You say that you can't live without me

I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying to let you know
That what I feel is true
And I'm only me when I'm with you

When I'm with anybody else, it's so hard to be myself
Only you can say

That I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying to let you know
that what I feel is true

And I'm only me
Who I wanna be
Well, I'm only me when I'm with you
With you

Monthly Reminder... ha ha.

Guys, the gospel is amazing. Everyday I learn new things that simply reinforce the amazingness of the gospel. And I just wanted to give everyone a little dose of encouragement. I was reading a book the other day that said, "Some men see the worst in others, but some men only see the worst in themselves". I think that's true of all of us sometimes. It's so easy to become discouraged. Sometimes I think that is Satan's biggest tool against us. Especially against us sisters. It's so easy for us (meaning me) to fall into this mindset that we aren't good enough. Well, let me tell you. You are good enough. You are wonderful exactly the way God made you. Your mistakes and your shortcomings are what make you you. I learn so much from all of you almost everyday. So many quiet acts of service and so many kind words are spoken everyday and I wonder if we even realize the impact that our smallest acts have? We have so much potential to do great things. I have kind of a little challenge for you all- it's a challenge that I'm giving myself and I think it will be easier for me if my friends do it to (ha ha- just one of my shortcomings). Let's make Satan afraid of what we will do. I've spent a lot of my life ( especially since reading Moses) scared to death of Satan- I even used to have nightmares about him all the time. But as Joseph Smith said, we were born to be disturbers and annoyers of the adversaries kingdom. Let's be the people who when we wake up in the morning Satan says, "oh no, they're up again". Just for a little added motivation I'm enclosing a quote from the book The Brother's -If you haven't read it- READ IT. So, I'll set it up for you- these brother are in the premortal experience and the adversary is trying to get him to take his side in the war in heaven. Ammon, the brother, rejects Satan plan and Satan goes all knashing of teeth on him. This is Ammon's response, "Do what you will. I don't fear you now. I understand, can't you see that?I know what you can and can't do to me now. You can tempt me, desert me, or cause me great pain; you can create a dark world that may cause me to fear; you can rule your world with blood and terror, that's true. But you can't win. And I know that. Weak as I am, with all of my failings, I am stronger than you. I will soon have a body. And I have my agency now. I will increase in my faith and knowledge and power. I am not perfect, but I will be, and there's not a thing you can do! I will become like the Father if I follow the Son. You are powerless to stop me. You can threaten and tempt and whisper lies in my ear, but you can't stop me, Satan; I see that so clearly now! I can stop myself, yes, but only if I follow you. And I reject your temptations. I reject your whispered lies. I reject you, Lucifer, and your entire plan. You have no power to control me. I am in control of myself. And try as you might, you won't control me on earth. Here, or the earth, it doesn't matter; I AM ALWAYS STRONGER THAN YOU." You are all so wonderful and so full of beauty and potential. Please don't forget that. You can make a difference and you can win. I love you all.