He's just not that into me...

I suck at living my life so from now on each of you is going to take a day of the week and run my life. Ha ha. But seriously. If I have to tell my therapist one more time, "you told me so." I'm going to freak. So, yes, I should be in graduate school right now, so yes, I shouldn't take life so seriously, so yes, moving to Las Vegas to run away from my life was a bad idea. To be honest, when it comes to my life, I feel like I make nothing but bad choices. A dear friend (if you know who I'm talking about you know that was sarcastic) recently asked me "What in the HELL are you doing with your life right now?" My answer...silence. If I knew that, we wouldn't have been having a conversation right then, or ever. So, I spent all day today fighting with my mom about everything from my car, to what I majored in in college, to my religion, to the boy (or lack of one)in my life. In between these arguments I read He's Just Not That Into You. Let me tell you. He's just not that into me. "Beware of the word 'friend.' It can often be used by men or the women that love them to excuse the most unfriendly behavior. Personally, when I'm picking friends, I like the ones who don't make me cry myself to sleep." Also, "...What I can do is paint you a picture of what you'll never see when you're with a guy who's really into you: You'll never see you staring maniacally at your phone, willing it to ring. You'll never see you ruining an evening with friends because your calling for your messages every fifteen seconds. You'll never see you hating yourself for calling him when you know you shouldn't have." I've accepted this. And the best part is, as this realization dawned on me, rather than falling back on the old stand by and crying, I just started laughing. I think it's a relief to Finally be free of the confusion. And I'm going to take the advice of the book, "There's a guy out there who will want to tell everyone that he's your boyfriend. Quit goofing around and go find him." So, I now have the boy thing figured out. That just leaves every other aspect of my life out of whack. Whatev.